Joy is defined as “the emotion of great
delight or happiness caused by something
exceptionally good or satisfying; keen
pleasure; elation.”
My life is all of those things. I
have many reasons to be happy. Every day,
I experience things that are exceptionally good. But I have this dark cloud over me, and every
time I catch myself experiencing joy, for feeling joy, I suddenly stop. I feel like I don’t deserve joy because of
what I have done in my past. Or that I
can’t feel joy because something bad is about to happen.
The bible calls joy one of the
fruits of the spirit. Galatians 5:22 says “But the fruit of the Spirit is
love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness.” Nehemiah 8:10 says “…Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.” And I know that the Enemy is here to rob me of
my joy. That he thrives when I
worry. He loves it when I am so
distracted by my fearful thoughts that I miss the beautiful events in my
life. John 10:10 says “The thief comes only to steal and kill and
destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.”
Daily, I find myself losing my
joy more and more. I am so scared of what the future holds. The Enemy knows this, and I just feel over
powered by him. I cannot make a single
move without fear. I have no hope for
the future. I feel as though life is
done, and I am just a walking shell. I
feel like it is something more than depression, something bigger than that.
Dear Lord, please pull me out of this
horrible place of fear, worry and great sadness. I need you God. I can’t do it myself. I am so tired and have very little fight left
in me. God please help me make it
through this time of doubt and unknowing.
God please help me to know, in my heart, to really know, that you will
take care of me no matter what the outcome of my situation may be. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.
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