Some times, when I least expect it, I have this sudden fear set in on me that will take my breath away. It is scary. It is heart breaking. It makes me want to hide under the covers and not come out. This evening, I was driving with one of my kids and he said, out of the blue, "I love you mom." All I could think is how much I never wanted to leave them. I hope and pray that nothing will ever take me away from them.
With the legal issue I am dealing with, there is a chance that my punishment could involve jail time. It is still unbelievable to me that I got myself into such a horrible situation. I was so selfish. I was so sick. It kills me! I am so scared that I could be taken away from my family. It is paralyzing fear. It is fear like nothing I have ever experienced before.
Dear Lord,
Please calm my fears. I pray that you will keep me with my family. God, I am so scared. I know that you forgive me of my sins, but I am so afraid of what man will do to me. Please give everyone involved in my situation a heart of forgiveness and of mercy. God, please have mercy on me! In Jesus name I pray. Amen.
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